Wednesday, December 16, 2015
Late Boom Problems
I don't really care if you think I should suffer prejudice from the force of Late Boom type stuff just because other people made a big whoopin' deal of it.
Reenactment of the Past
I'll just ignore that, then.
I bet it's a hot topic. You know, the only reason I have short hair is cuz I wanted something better. The reason it is its natural color is cuza money, preference, skin tone, etc. However, as a dancer, I need to grow my hair out. If you all wanna look like yer mama, then be my guest! Just be it in a younger form, of course, I mean, where it's the age difference.
I bet it's a hot topic. You know, the only reason I have short hair is cuz I wanted something better. The reason it is its natural color is cuza money, preference, skin tone, etc. However, as a dancer, I need to grow my hair out. If you all wanna look like yer mama, then be my guest! Just be it in a younger form, of course, I mean, where it's the age difference.
Not Trying to Attack
Maybe, I should assume that just didn't happen.
Why are you people so sick about the past and pretending what I mean? Can you think straight all the time, like when you're being talked at or pushed around? That's how fights start, and countries have believed in war in places like Europe for a long time, sad as it is of course.
I don't think people should pretend I have a problem I don't. I think if someone has a problem you should help them or be nice to them. Wake up! I am not the pin cushion girl tracting problems. I am not the definition of every problem there is. Hello. People are "normal" usually. There isn't something queer in the air. I'm not a weirdo. I just like to be extravagant personality-wise. It's called a personality, and I might have one.
Why are you people so sick about the past and pretending what I mean? Can you think straight all the time, like when you're being talked at or pushed around? That's how fights start, and countries have believed in war in places like Europe for a long time, sad as it is of course.
I don't think people should pretend I have a problem I don't. I think if someone has a problem you should help them or be nice to them. Wake up! I am not the pin cushion girl tracting problems. I am not the definition of every problem there is. Hello. People are "normal" usually. There isn't something queer in the air. I'm not a weirdo. I just like to be extravagant personality-wise. It's called a personality, and I might have one.
Jumping to Conclusions
People think blondes are okay and brunettes aren't.
I feel mistreated for my appearance. Get it, mistreated?
I feel mistreated for my appearance. Get it, mistreated?
Being Allowed to Speak Freely and Think Without "Thought Police"
Well, sometimes you know when something is right or wrong. I don't really accept being punished.
People keep thinking what if someone doesn't take something the right way.
What is this, anyway? I don't see anyone else getting punished. You think me getting attention is a loss to other people, too. Sometimes, it doesn't work that way. Some people don't have their personal lives together. Sometimes, it's different kinds of things. I know some people get a lotta attention from others. It's something that should be worked on. Sometimes, some people are bad and think it's cool. It's hard to fight that you can't believe in that and you wonder is everyone bad cuza racism among other things?
I never meant to start anything bad, so I don't see why people believe I should be punished and so hardly/much.
I also found out on The Ellen DeGeneres Show, too, today that people will give me a rough time and when it becomes obvious they are wrong they just wonder if you thought you were gonna get away with it socially as a mixed race person. I mean, they lie to mixed race people saying they did something wrong. After it becomes obvious you aren't that bad, the person just says you're trying to get away with talking to them and that it's not okay cuza your race. Like, they just assume it without stating it, it feels. Like, they'll act like, "Oh, you thought it was okay to talk to me?" while digging into the fact you are mixed race.
Speaking of which, I used to look okay without makeup cuz I never wore it. I always had a pudgy face in a way. I gained about 50 pounds for reasons not my fault, like in college. I am a little taller and bigger. So, now, I look ugly without makeup and with glasses on. I only do that at home and when I jog/walk. Also, my hair is growing out from being shaved after dying it. So, it looks a bit like a fro.
People keep thinking what if someone doesn't take something the right way.
What is this, anyway? I don't see anyone else getting punished. You think me getting attention is a loss to other people, too. Sometimes, it doesn't work that way. Some people don't have their personal lives together. Sometimes, it's different kinds of things. I know some people get a lotta attention from others. It's something that should be worked on. Sometimes, some people are bad and think it's cool. It's hard to fight that you can't believe in that and you wonder is everyone bad cuza racism among other things?
I never meant to start anything bad, so I don't see why people believe I should be punished and so hardly/much.
I also found out on The Ellen DeGeneres Show, too, today that people will give me a rough time and when it becomes obvious they are wrong they just wonder if you thought you were gonna get away with it socially as a mixed race person. I mean, they lie to mixed race people saying they did something wrong. After it becomes obvious you aren't that bad, the person just says you're trying to get away with talking to them and that it's not okay cuza your race. Like, they just assume it without stating it, it feels. Like, they'll act like, "Oh, you thought it was okay to talk to me?" while digging into the fact you are mixed race.
Speaking of which, I used to look okay without makeup cuz I never wore it. I always had a pudgy face in a way. I gained about 50 pounds for reasons not my fault, like in college. I am a little taller and bigger. So, now, I look ugly without makeup and with glasses on. I only do that at home and when I jog/walk. Also, my hair is growing out from being shaved after dying it. So, it looks a bit like a fro.
You want me to also solve the world's problems?
Maybe, if they stopped thinking they were better than other people, they'd make an improvement and become happy.
I hope the end result isn't just to glorify Late Boomers. It's not time for people like me to back off and not get more "fun" because we have certain other qualities to envy.
I hope the end result isn't just to glorify Late Boomers. It's not time for people like me to back off and not get more "fun" because we have certain other qualities to envy.
Jealousy and Improvement
It seems that if someone in your life is jealous of something about your personality that it will be limited for you to improve yourself in your own life and with others in your mutual lives.
Ellen DeGeneres - Relaxation
It seems she doesn't always go off of the end product. She sieves thru things.
Things you do can multiply. Not sure what people go off of, the news, a breath of fresh air. I read some of a book with that as an example, The Tao of Pooh. Highlight: I think it asked Winnie the Pooh how to know what's going on in the world. He said by going outside. Right and wrong are not always the same pattern. You have to just like ground yourself to improve. Think about what's real and what's big. Also, keep at something and you probably make a revolutionary discovery or end product of a thought.
Things you do can multiply. Not sure what people go off of, the news, a breath of fresh air. I read some of a book with that as an example, The Tao of Pooh. Highlight: I think it asked Winnie the Pooh how to know what's going on in the world. He said by going outside. Right and wrong are not always the same pattern. You have to just like ground yourself to improve. Think about what's real and what's big. Also, keep at something and you probably make a revolutionary discovery or end product of a thought.
Saving It for Later??
I know a lotta people out there aren't really fans of Ellen DeGeneres cuz I've never met one who seemed to click. For example, there's a certain feel I do get when I encounter long time fans. The only thing that seems strange is I've met people who watch her a lot. Nothing seemed to click, like no common reverence for her. Other things to notice are her past and what she represents for the world, being born around 1960, the way people born around 1950, like Karen Carpenter, who passed away, do.
All else I can say, too, is as I've always felt.. be ready before you watch someone like Ellen or, like, Oprah who I think is off air.
All else is I know people who watch her or maybe they also watch a lotta TV. It's hard to know where they're coming from. They seem very ambiguous and jaded. I am guessing their parents had nothing else to turn on, like how I watched Mary Poppins a lot when I was 2. It seems hard to think that there would be another Julie Andrews.
Ellen DeGeneres has a lot of fans and is very popular. It's just hard to reach out to her biggest fans. You'd expect they'd be found online somehow.
All else I can say, too, is as I've always felt.. be ready before you watch someone like Ellen or, like, Oprah who I think is off air.
All else is I know people who watch her or maybe they also watch a lotta TV. It's hard to know where they're coming from. They seem very ambiguous and jaded. I am guessing their parents had nothing else to turn on, like how I watched Mary Poppins a lot when I was 2. It seems hard to think that there would be another Julie Andrews.
Ellen DeGeneres has a lot of fans and is very popular. It's just hard to reach out to her biggest fans. You'd expect they'd be found online somehow.
Listening to Older Generations
It seems kids/teens today forget how much younger they are than their parental units. I thought they were pretty cool. I probably just made a nest about where I am. If I'm something to be jealous of, why don't they admit I have an ideal situation that's okay?
Parents and Badness
What parent believes that if they are bad that their own kids have to be considered even more bad no matter how "good" they are?
Your Background
People think I come from a bad family, like ooh my mom is Chinese-Indonesian, my dad is not born after 1950.
Yes to Others, No to Me
Do you know when people get a fit over you saying something like, "I like that person?" Someone will just stupidly get mad and say it's unfair you looked good saying that? because they think that means something like you have to be just like them?
Well, these people are told everything is okay, but I feel a lotta pressure trying to get by socially.
Well, these people are told everything is okay, but I feel a lotta pressure trying to get by socially.
The Ellen DeGeneres Show
Lupita Nyong'o was such a beautiful person! Very smart, sweet, kind, respectful. Interesting!
Uzo Aduba seemed like a very sweet person, as well.
They are both black and lovely.
Uzo Aduba seemed like a very sweet person, as well.
They are both black and lovely.
Tuesday, December 15, 2015
Revised Dance Schedule
Hip Hop 1 - Monday - 6:30-7:30 - 1 hr
Tap 1/2 - Tuesday - 5:30-6:15 - 45 min
Acro 1 - Wednesday - 6-6:45 - 45 min
Jazz 1 - Wednesday - 7-8 - 1 hr
Ballet 1 - Thursday - 6-7:30 - 1 1/2 hrs
Leaps & Turns - Saturday - 11:15-12 - 45 min
5 1/4 hours = $215/month
Tap 1/2 - Tuesday - 5:30-6:15 - 45 min
Acro 1 - Wednesday - 6-6:45 - 45 min
Jazz 1 - Wednesday - 7-8 - 1 hr
Ballet 1 - Thursday - 6-7:30 - 1 1/2 hrs
Leaps & Turns - Saturday - 11:15-12 - 45 min
5 1/4 hours = $215/month
Monday, December 14, 2015
Only Me in Trouble
It upsets me, but people are getting mad at me for being upset about someone who's actually the one who seems especially feisty. They also think they're the people's person and I'm not accepted all of a sudden cuza race. You shouldn't be comparing a nonwhite with a white in some ways. Just accept they both exist.
Whatcha Doin'?
Do you all wanna think of someone as being better than yourself?
They keep acting like this person is important but better than me.
They keep acting like this person is important but better than me.
Not Enough Room or What?
Afraid to admit maybe I am something but not afraid to sat so about others? what about yourself?
It's not just excusable.
It's not just excusable.
So..
Why should I like people if they're on hold about being respectful?
People think people who are worse than others are actually good and good people are bad.
They relay something suggestive about you and say, "That's it!" That's what they were looking for and then they sew it on like that was the whole problem, what someone mean needed to feel better.
People think people who are worse than others are actually good and good people are bad.
They relay something suggestive about you and say, "That's it!" That's what they were looking for and then they sew it on like that was the whole problem, what someone mean needed to feel better.
The Ellen DeGeneres Show
Idina Menzel was nice and fun! She is Jewish and her X is black. She has 1 son, and he looks so cute from the pictures I've seen online. They played giant Jenga, and it looked cool. I remember when the colored/African-American Annie played with Ellen DeGeneres and the guy from the show. She even gave the audience this game as a gift. What an evening!
The lady who used to be Princess Leia was on and it was so cool. She seemed so different in real life. She's a lot older now. I liked her a lot. She looked a bit winded from all the fame. She sold tickets to Star Wars outside with Ellen. It was pretty neat seeing who stopped to trade in for the tickets.
When the 2 ladies from the audience came down to play the game, it was funny they couldn't play. They had to "reach for the stars" hanging over a bed blindfolded, but they were too high.
So, she added a bonus day of giveaways today. When I was on the show in the audience the 1st time was not 12 Days but the 2nd was. I don't remember if I got anything the 1st time.
The lady who used to be Princess Leia was on and it was so cool. She seemed so different in real life. She's a lot older now. I liked her a lot. She looked a bit winded from all the fame. She sold tickets to Star Wars outside with Ellen. It was pretty neat seeing who stopped to trade in for the tickets.
When the 2 ladies from the audience came down to play the game, it was funny they couldn't play. They had to "reach for the stars" hanging over a bed blindfolded, but they were too high.
So, she added a bonus day of giveaways today. When I was on the show in the audience the 1st time was not 12 Days but the 2nd was. I don't remember if I got anything the 1st time.
Dancewear
I was picking all the high priced items and it amounted to $300-$400. I got all the cheapest things and it's only $139.
What I Don't Require
I don't need people staring at me to see what my reaction was and if it was spot on. That's generational rejection.
Revised Dance Schedule
Hip Hop 1 - Monday - 6:30-7:30 - 1 hr
Tap 1/2 - Tuesday - 5:30-6:15 - 45 min
Acro 1 - Wednesday - 6-6:45 - 45 min
Jazz 1 - Wednesday - 7-8 - 1 hr
Ballet 1 - Thursday - 6-7:30 - 1 1/2 hrs
Aladdin even requires tap!
You know, they use ballet in opera. It's great. I just think I'm not as good as I was. It's competitive.
Tap 1/2 - Tuesday - 5:30-6:15 - 45 min
Acro 1 - Wednesday - 6-6:45 - 45 min
Jazz 1 - Wednesday - 7-8 - 1 hr
Ballet 1 - Thursday - 6-7:30 - 1 1/2 hrs
Aladdin even requires tap!
You know, they use ballet in opera. It's great. I just think I'm not as good as I was. It's competitive.
Changed My Mind - Dance
I just want to take dance for now, $180/moth:
Hip Hop 1 - Monday - 6:30-7:30 - 1 hr
Acro 1 - Wednesday - 6-6:45 - 45 min
Jazz 1 - Wednesday - 7-8 - 1 hr
Ballet 1 - Thursday - 6-7:30 - 1 1/2 hrs
I hope to start today. I have to finish off a gymnastics class this month, tho.
I'm excited at the opportunity. They are having a master class in dancing or something for the Sound of Music tour soon.
Hip Hop 1 - Monday - 6:30-7:30 - 1 hr
Acro 1 - Wednesday - 6-6:45 - 45 min
Jazz 1 - Wednesday - 7-8 - 1 hr
Ballet 1 - Thursday - 6-7:30 - 1 1/2 hrs
I hope to start today. I have to finish off a gymnastics class this month, tho.
I'm excited at the opportunity. They are having a master class in dancing or something for the Sound of Music tour soon.
"Jumping to Conclusions"
I think people think they have conquered my ancestral family, like yup I liked it but I did it that family is nothing!
Sunday, December 13, 2015
Key Word: Birthday/Older. Not rude at all to me but made to feel insecure. Possibly her loss, not a gain. 😳 😜 🔥 https://t.co/46adwfn1zd
— Christina Barrett (@8ChristinaAnn6) December 13, 2015
@TheEllenShow 😯 If I ever get to meet her, I'm going to put a smile on my face.
— Christina Barrett (@8ChristinaAnn6) December 13, 2015
@taylorswift13 🌻 Happy 26th Birthday! 🌻
— Christina Barrett (@8ChristinaAnn6) December 13, 2015
Question: Taylor Swift
Ellen DeGeneres left her and yelled to her as she was away going, "Don't talk to me!" So, I was wondering.. Anyway, I'm an adult/we're adults. I think I can think for myself without others's help.
Ellen vs. Taylor
Happy birthday @TaylorSwift13. I hope you have a wonderful day. Seriously. https://t.co/E76LVoJivt
— Ellen DeGeneres (@TheEllenShow) December 13, 2015
That reminds me people always blame their tacky problems on me.If someone makes an advance on Ellen DeGeneres, that opens the sea for all the fish to come in, except for the fish that was comfortable. I also got a queer message about speaking to people as an adult who taught me as a kid, like online. People know I was quiet and didn't get around but could've.
It's not a race.
People keep pushing people to make snap judgements in what they say and judge them from there. They can't do something else?
"Good Listeners?"
People don't let me think and don't listen to me.
I find others say the same thing and they are taken seriously.
I see who's trying to impress or get the attention from who.
I find others say the same thing and they are taken seriously.
I see who's trying to impress or get the attention from who.
Weird ^Rules^
Do you ever think people from certain heritages just make up rules to make you feel like there's authority? And the rules are weird? It's like they are probing your mind for who and what you are. Maybe, they are just shining you up so they can see their reflection better over you.
Heritage
I find if I do something wrong, I get pitched to my father's heritage in Pennsylvania rather than what I said where I'm from, the South.
College Choirs Not Quite "up to Snuff"
The girls sound old and warbly and there is the thing where you think it's just for the ripe taste.
A Tug
I was thinking of having kids to be a role model. I felt a tug like there was promise for my life in the performing arts. A college degree might have been helpful but in what? Some colleges let you create your own major. I think good colleges do this, like the ones for "high achievers." I was thinking along the lines you're Johnny Depp or Lily Rose Depp and still you're not content. That's the guy who played Willy Wonka in 2005 and his daughter whose separated mom is French.
I have nothing.
I think people who excel in things like acting who get good money think it's all in hiding out and not developing their talents and doing the work.
Messed up People
Do you know people who mess up their lives only to ask for others to sacrifice for them like it's their fault?
With most people, they have to "solve their own problems."
This has to do with Generation, Race, Age, Heritage.. Favoritism..
And it's getting late in time.
With most people, they have to "solve their own problems."
This has to do with Generation, Race, Age, Heritage.. Favoritism..
And it's getting late in time.
Interesting Things
I feel old in ballet.
I think I have to quit gymnastics to pay for classical voice and jazz.
I think I have to quit gymnastics to pay for classical voice and jazz.
Classical Singing and Jazz Dancing
Doing classical singing is typical cuz that's what they do in college and so is jazz dancing, which is good for classical singing.
Getting Away
Sometimes, you just need to get away from someone to preserve your relationship for later.
"Most People"
They think they have a spot reserved with Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (2005) and stomp off to bed pointing their finger at everyone.
Just Missed the Boat
I do believe in the success of the generation born up to 2002. It has nothing to do with anything bad that I know of.
Check out this picture: link.
The redhead is in Christmas Mail (2010.) She is born in 2000. The other girl is a little older and seems to have it all, comparably, in a way.
Check out this picture: link.
The redhead is in Christmas Mail (2010.) She is born in 2000. The other girl is a little older and seems to have it all, comparably, in a way.
Kids Today
The ones born around 1997 and 1998.
In Christmas Mail (2010) which I am watching, the girl thinks it's right to sound insistent. She was taught she deserves to do this and others can't.
In Christmas Mail (2010) which I am watching, the girl thinks it's right to sound insistent. She was taught she deserves to do this and others can't.
Something New
If you meet people, they get queasy and melt away and can't even understand why anything exists. They think others are not in their destiny. They start saying some people aren't as good as they used to be and never deserved to know a lotta people.
Tricky
Why am I being blamed for who I am by who my parents are? It's like I had to have done something wrong and not be cool. My family is so good it wants for nothing.
Saturday, December 12, 2015
A Rule
I don't like to turn little, bad things into a big deal. Like ignoring someone who needs a lesson.
TV
Christmas Mail (2010)
The young redhead girl looked at the Late Boomer looking lady like she was just normal and not something too amazing for her. She looked at her, shuddered to feel as she was touched, and left as tho it was a normal thing for her to be so special.
The young redhead girl looked at the Late Boomer looking lady like she was just normal and not something too amazing for her. She looked at her, shuddered to feel as she was touched, and left as tho it was a normal thing for her to be so special.
The Norm
Do you know when light is too light? Sometimes, it's all you can do to get by, like pretty Swedes.
Something That Doesn't Make Sense
When someone acts like you aren't as good as a blonde as they are when they are not blonde.
Being a Role Model
The reason older adults stand out is because they weren't careless like younger adults today, trashing tradition and taking for granted "what they have?"
WWYD, would you accept this?
Very famous people saying you're worthless? Because someone has a problem with something they claim you did?
Something Funny
Do you know people who are so selfish they just smile when they are liked better than you, like "that's it?" Otherwise, they are probing for what's wrong against someone who has a hard life? like chasing them and hunting them down? or constantly berating them?
Hidden Racism
Do you know people who think other nonwhite races are disposable?
Like, if they are a little fat or did something that doesn't make sense for them they think?
They think it's a game, but it's not. I have found it hard to live with. I get in trouble if I think of the N word, too, cuz it tends to sound like I'm calling someone that. I don't want to, but the message they give me spells that out to me. A lotta people who are nonwhite believe that so that they will be treated better, but if they meet a mixed person like me they are vicious and racist and attacking like all wild and crazy, like their mood or the picture they get. So, I don't accept racism like other nonwhites learn to accept.
You may think I am rebellious and it's a problem, but I don't deserve racism anymore than a white. How I react and improve is my business, not your right to say that's what you hurt me for. I was the one being attacked.
TV
Mary Poppins is on.
I noticed she has blue eyes and light hair, and Audrey Hepburn's eyes are brown.
Also, did you know Audrey Hepburn's dad is ethnically Irish? Julie Andrews is all English, I think. Audrey Hepburn is older.
Lotta blondes without very outstanding eyes, even in Europe, like they fought tooth and nail in the womb to come out blonde so hard their eyes were not as good to them. They were "like everyone else" or a lotta other people without blonde hair, in that way. That must be a hard life. I tend to be a medium shade of everything.
I noticed she has blue eyes and light hair, and Audrey Hepburn's eyes are brown.
Also, did you know Audrey Hepburn's dad is ethnically Irish? Julie Andrews is all English, I think. Audrey Hepburn is older.
Lotta blondes without very outstanding eyes, even in Europe, like they fought tooth and nail in the womb to come out blonde so hard their eyes were not as good to them. They were "like everyone else" or a lotta other people without blonde hair, in that way. That must be a hard life. I tend to be a medium shade of everything.
The World
Is the world convenient for you or inconvenient?
Has it been different at different blocks of times?
Has it been different at different blocks of times?
♥
On TV
Baby care. Dark people holding any sort of kids. A Scandinavian-looking young American girl in bare feet, maybe age 19 or 20. She's having fun shaking instruments, blowing bubbles. It's all about her. The kids can tell she's no mom.
I'd like people to treat me like that's my race.
What did she do?
Kids With Southern Parents
I saw this baby on BabyFirst from Alabama, which is between Mississippi and Georgia and has the oldest city in the US.
New Favorite
Dance Time Boys on BabyFirst. They go into a ballet studio with older girls rehearsing The Nutcracker. Little kids are sitting around. They show the face of one girl lying down partly and you see her eye is so clear and blue and pretty. Her hair is straight and white. I think we saw her get up. Has to be Swedish.
I feel a real bond..
..to this little girl dancing on BabyFirst, with Dance Time Boys, who looks part Swedish with medium-long white blonde hair and a young, cute look. Like, we all love Ellen. This girl is cut for success.
Parenting Magazine Subscription..
I get the Parenting magazine and it doesn't have a whole lotta/if any psychology. It had a cute craft.
What I'm here to say tho is they highlighted that the Peanuts movie was out for "winter" break, which is early November.
IMDb - The Soapbox
I kept peeing in my pants today at beginning adult gymnastics. I had an Ultra tampon in.
...
At least mostly white, I think.
I really liked her a lot. It was a sub who teaches intermediate/advanced gymnastics.
She whipped me into shape.
She is quite a bit taller than me but not too tall, reddish hair cut short, maybe with some volume yet mostly straight/waved. Not sure what color her eyes are. It was me and 2 other girls mostly. She is probably in her early 50s or 40s.
She helped me flip back with my feet up on a square thing.
I often get there early to watch the kids and I see her then.
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